A good leader…

Tonight a lot happened. i’m still reeling. after i write this i’m going to go up to my bedroom and get on my knees and pray. why is God allowing me to be a part of this and watch Him do work on guys’ hearts? i’m not worthy, a million times over. why does He let sinners draw near Him? why did He go to the cross? so unworthy. I LOVE THE GOSPEL. i love Jesus. such a great and wonderful God, such a worthy King and loving Shepherd. i just want Him, and i want to live to please Him and obey Him. i want to see as many men as possible give Him the glory He deserves–NOW. i want my brothers to meet Jesus and fall in love with Him; to love Him like the men love their captain. i want to people to MEET Jesus, to really MEET Jesus for real and have new hearts and new lives that cry out for more of Him and can’t help but change their lives to please Him. i’m going to a Japanese retreat this weekend and there’s a guy who’s seeking. PRAY so hard that God gives him a new heart of faith and repentance THIS WEEKEND, and that i faithfully and patiently explain the Gospel to him and love on him. PRAY that the Holy Spirit will give me words and that He will regenerate Yohei’s heart. PRAY that next week i will post that God brought one of the elect into the family, into the fold. PRAY, i am begging you, PRAY. really really PRAY.

Tonight i want to honor my leader. Matt Jensen is a man among men worthy to be followed. It is all Jesus working through him, but He is a soldier and a commander. I am so privilged to be working with and under Matt. His leadership and friendship has been so huge in growing me. Please pray for Him that God would strengthen Him and refresh him. And praise God that i can serve under him and that Matt has a heart for all peoples to know Jesus–that’s how i first even got into this staff position–he wanted to help me reach as many Japanese people as possible. in the manliest of ways, i love him and am so grateful for him and want to honor him here.